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thank heaven.. tapos na din ang 3rd exam.. grabe.. sobrang nag pay-off din ang nde nmin pagtulog last night. hehehe.. as in feeling ko talga pde na pumasa exam ko.. nde rin..so here i am now.. sa apartment…can’t sleep so. eto .. blog ang napagdiskitahan.. c honey tulog sa kama.. c kathe naliligo na.. c hazel nmn.. eto nagttxt..ewan ko ba.. tapos nakahiga.. hehehe c tiongson aun.. nde maayos ung cam tapos mali pa ung na dl na song, hehehe ang saya.. sobra na to.. eto pa.. hehe as in asar ung araw nmin ni honey kahapon.. iba na talga ang powers ko.. sabi ko lang na feeling ko dapat punta kami ng rob kc nga may makikita kami at wish ko lang na book ang makita nmin at nde tao.. hehehe it turned out cla tiddy bir at tingting.. harhar.. ewan ko ba.. it seems like they’re haunting us or something cant put a finger to it e..un.. so eto ewan ko wala na magaw.. tong tita ko nangungulit. aba dun ba nmn sa bahay nmin gusto tumira.. wan ko lang kung papayag si kuya.. pero i doubt it.. sana nga nde.. ewan ko lang.. bsta nde ko gusto ung idea.. mahirap na.. hehehe.. so un. wala na ko masabi.. sakit na din fingers ko.. hehhe.. kagabi pa ko sulat ng sulat. tpaos ngaun type nmn. ay oo nga pala.. pagkatapos ni kathe si honey nmn ang maliligo tapos punta kmai ng nepo ata to watch a movie. finally.. hehe para masaya pde ng magliwaliw after ng bwisit na exam.. wahahahahaha.. tapos wala ka may class pa bukas.. haay.. cant he give us a break??

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c.. tooooot. wala lang .. nagulat ako.. may bago sa.. basta.. wahahahahha.. un lang.. buti na lang.. haven’t seen him for quite some time.. ayos.. wahaha

e ano pa nga ba?? eto na sa library ako.. kc nga mainit sa labas.. dito c italia at si banengneng.. sabi nilang dalawa ang pangit na daw ng friendster ngaun.. hehehe asar. walang magawa ang masama pa nito wala pa din akong tulog.. waaaaaaaaaaaahhh.. i wanna go to the mall na. i wanna watch a movie na asar nga lang c italia pano kc may comm 3 pa.. i need to have a break before i stduy sa 181, or else… i dont know what im gonna do.. i think ima go nuts or something.. hahaha sa sobrang walang magawa naisip ko ganito na lang.. magtype ng mag type dito sa blog para may magawa.. hehehehe… neways.. ahh.. wala pala… inip na ko.. gusto ko na matulog.. i wanna go home sa bataan. to curl up in my bed.. at least dun sobrang comfy at sobrang lamig.. sarap matulog hehehehe.. sa sobrang miss ko sa kama ko hay nyako.. sobrang bagal ko tuloy basahin ung witching hour.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh… zzai nood na tau cne.. wag ka ng pumasok!!!!! buti pa si banengneng uuwi na ngaun dahil wala cya pasok tomoz at sa wednesday..argh

i swear im so bored i dont even know what to do.. i am so stressed about everything.. i really wanna talk to this person so i can bitch about everything.. and everyone for that matter.. i cant help myself but.. ugh…what really pisses me off right now is that i dont even have a word to call what my life is like right now..i mean dont get me wrong, i still do go out to have fun and stuff. actually i just watched a movie with zzai..it was fun.. but then.. i dont know.. if i dont have anything to do…but think..(this is what really pushes my button.) i cant help but think about so many what ifs and all the people around me and what they’ve done to me.. not to mention,…. never mind.. i dont know.. sometimes i just wanna give up on everybody and start minding my own bloody life.. if u can call it a life..awww… i really miss him na.. i wanna talk and talk and start bitchin about everything.. i guess im being so redundant na.. hehehhe.. i dont know.. i cant wait for the sem break to start…i’d be locked up na by that time sa bahay..that’s a good thing..i can start reading all the books i’ve bought for like a month..spent all my savings on books.. again..hmm….cant wait for everything to change..i have like a month or so …cant wait really.. its not that i dont like or love my so called life right now..but hey, cant blame a gal for wanting something else..you cant…..tried all that is humanly possible in my power to make it work but.. well… who cares, right… to hell with it….feuck em ol.. i shoudnt give a damn anymore….hehehe.. just kidding.. but then.. who knows..

OMG OMG last night was the best night of my life so far.. deym.. grabe didn’t think that my knees could go like that.. i was ..i dont know what i was.. hehehe.. it’s so hard to explain.. sobrang speechless ako.. tameme as in.. umurong na naman ang aking etits.. wahahahaha… sobrang gwapo talaga ni yael.. nyako kung garapal lang talaga ako… argh!!! hinalikan ko na talaga un.. pero wala e.. tameme ako as in.. waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh…. MOMMY!!!

BOY: I saw her today GIRL: I saw him today BOY: It seems like its been forever GIRL: I wonder if he still cares BOY: She looks better than before GIRL: I couldn’t stop staring at him BOY: I asked her how things were going GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend BOY: I’d choose her over any girl im with GIRL: He’s probablly really happy right now BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry GIRL: He couldnt even look at me BOY: I told her I miss her GIRL: He doesnt mean it BOY: I meant it GIRL: He didnt mean it BOY: I love her GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend BOY: I held her for the last time GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug BOY: Then I went home and cried GIRL: Then I went home and cried BOY: I lost her GIRL: I still love him

grabe na to ha. yesterday was so weird and to think it wasn’t the first time it happened. i was with bryan sa robinsons tapos we were talkin about HIM. tapos we checked something sa friendster ko. grabe ha. i told bryan what happened before sa rob din when i was with mhe. that was like the last time i went there before yesterday. we saw HIm din. hahaha grabe sila nga sabi ng ni bry. as in? hehehehe grabe damang dama namin ang  pagdating ng mga hathor! hahahahaha bryan grabe na to…. im not over the it pa rin. hehehehe

ever felt na you’ll see someone you’re not expecting sa isang place before even getting there? i mean alam mo na na cya ung makikita mo. ang labo dba? grabe as in na feel ko na makikita ko ulit cya dun. and to think na palabas na kami ng mall when we saw them. i had this feeling na paglumingon ako may makikita ako na kakilala ko. so lumingon ako. in the first place, what do i have to lose? di ba? so i did. and to my ewan, ano nga ba ang opposite ng much surprise e ndi naman ako na surprise, nakita ko cya. see! even before that moment, ung paglingon ko, i knew na sya ung makikita ko. grabe that was like the 2nd time na nangyari un dun sa place na yun. pero all in all 3 times na talaga. ewan ko ba. kaloka talaga. para tuloy ayaw ko ng bumalik dun sa mall na un. katrauma na e. hahahaha joke joke. sabi ng ni mhe maliit lang ang pamps! heheheh weird!!!!!!!!

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RESIGNATION I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer’s day. I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn’t bother you, because you didn’t know what you didn’t know and you didn’t care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again. I want to live simple again. I don’t want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow. So . . . here’s my checkbook and my car keys, my credit card bills and my income tax statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood. And if you want to discuss this further, you’ll have to catch me first, cause…….. ……"Tag! You’re it." Pass this to someone and brighten their day by helping them remember the Simple things in Life. ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

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Kitang-kita ko ang ating kasiyahan
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At di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya

Okey lang naman ang ating usapan
Hindi na lang babalikan ang nakaraan
Ang nakaraan

Ayos lang, basta’t kasama
Konting alak lang, Kahit walang pulutan
Ang minsan, naaalala
Di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya

Sige, pagpatuloy niyo lang
Unti-unting lunurin sa kasiyahan
Sige, pagpasensiyahan na lang
Mga pumipigil sa ating ligaya

Okey lang naman ang ating usapan
Hindi na lang babalikan ang nakaraan
Ang nakaraan

Ayos lang, basta’t kasama
Konting alak lang, Kahit walang pulutan
Ang minsan, naaalala
Di magtatagal, tayo ay liligaya