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` there’s always a time in everyone’s life that we must stop living in fairy tales and face the facts of life no matter how difficult and frightening the possibilities may be.. whenver we love someone, you can never set aside the possibilities of getting hurt.. the heart has it’s limits on how much pain it can endure. and once the limit is reached, the capacity of it to endure pain diminishes, hence, love and trust fades.. and this is an inevitable fact that everyone should know and consider…

` don’t be afraid to be loved more than you can return..be afraid that  you don’t give back the love that  you can..love need not be equal to be fair..it only needs to be true..

` i tend to be heedful to the fact that there are uncertainties as to where i should stand in a person’s life..when i love, i never assume and expect to be loved in return..i simply listen to my heart and follow what it says..and later on if i find out and be certain about where u stand in his life, whatever the answer maybe, i know and i’m sure i won’t regret anything..

` what we need to know about loving is not a great mystery..we all know what constitutes loving.. we need but act upon it..not continually question it. analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us negative insights. we sometimes become so busy classifying, separating and examining to remember  that love is easy.. it is we who make it complicated…

" i wish i know how to quit you.." - brokeback mountain

"it’s because i love you that i make your life miserable.." - real women have curves

" i think i know my unfinished business.. it’s you.." - just like heaven

" it’s just that when i’m not with you, i feel i don’t exist.." - just like heaven

"revenge is a meal best served cold." - man on fire

" hindi ganun ka-importante and alaala..wag mo tong masyadong pahalagahan.." - kim sam soon

" when you’re with the right person, yuo feel more like yourself than ever.. there’s a happiness and a feeling of coming alive to yourself and the other person..that’s like nothing else.." - i do

from candy magazine march issue…

Kiss

in a place where silence is defeaning
the breeze so cool
no one can stand a place
where one can truly reveal
what they think
what they feel

suddenly you came so sad
with tears falling
i was curious
so i offered something to help you stop sobbing

you opened up and shred your fears
it felt weird
a stranger trusting someone like me
darkness appeared
we just sat still
i said farewell
and then you kissed me

i know how you feel
too bad it’s not love
it’s just a kiss
i know it’s over
but that kiss changed us forever

Here I go climbing a mountain
It’s much too high for me
And here I go crossing the ocean
Losing myself, getting lost in the sea
Where did I go wrong
When did I stop singing a love song

Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I was blind and could not see
Maybe you were never the one
Maybe you were not the one for me
Maybe

Here I go posing a question
Not sure of what I’ll hear
Here I go refusing to let you answer
Until I make myself so very clear
We can take what was wrong
We can end these words in a love song

Maybe if we try
Maybe we can start again when we’ve already said good-bye
Maybe we can still be what we always dreamed that we could be

And I know that I was wrong to let you go
But I’m still holding on to let you know

Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I was blind and could not see
Oh but baby I’ll be strong
And I’ll sacrifice the very breath I breathe
If I could only hear you say to me
When I ask you if you think you still love me
Maybe

Verse 1]
I’m home alone again
And you’re out hangin with your friends
So you say
Somehow I know it’s not quite that way

It’s getting pretty late
And you haven’t checked on me all day
When I
called you didn’t answer
Now I’m feeling like your ignoring me
I wish that you were home
Holding me tight in your arms

And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

[Chorus:] I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So you couldn’t hurt me
it just ain’t fair the way you treat me
No you don’t
deserve me
Wasting my time thinking bout you when you ain’t never gon change
I wish I wasn’t in love with you so I
wouldn’t feel this way

[Verse 2]
When you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forgive
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love
that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that’s why I’m so mad
Now I’m drowning in
disappointment
And it’s hard for me to even look at you

And I wish that you were home
Holding me tight in your arms
And
I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Said you care about me
But from what I see
I ain’t feeling that
So I disagree
Gave you all my love
And understanding

And you’re treating me like your enemy
So leave me alone
Don’t want nothing from you
Just go back where you came from

This house is no longer your home
You are not welcome no no no more

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
Hear you knockin’ at the door again
I’m wonderin’ should I let you in
I open up the door and see
The flowers for me
So
beautiful in your hand
Please stop begging me to take you back
I’ve always been a sucker for romance
And before you know
it I concede
You’re all over me
Oh no here I go again
I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So you couldn’t hurt me

never had i thought things could be like this complicated.. was it me?? i don’t know really.. but then… i could be wrong.. i wish i’m not.. things can be so damn frustrating.. always thinking about things you shouldn’t thinking about.. you couldn’t blame anyone, actually.. you decide what you wanna do..
things aren’t the same anymore… i’ve changed.. i wish i could go.. numb?.. just might be the case.. i wish..

" to err is human, getting even? that is divine." - The Practice

"we have souls, you and I. we want to know things; we share the same earth, rich and verdant and fraught without perils. we don’t -either of us - know what we might say to the contrary. it’s a cinch that if we did, i wouldn’t be writing and you wouldn’t be reading this book." - Lestat de Lioncourt, Memnoch the Devil

"no good deed goes unpunished." - Lincoln Rhyme

"it takes a special kind of animal to do something vicious, and not to feel any remorse."  - Roger, Memnoch the Devil

"to paraphrase: there are only two times a man shouldn’t gamble. one, when he can’t afford to lose money. and two, when he can." - Mark Twain

"it’s always better to ganble with somebody else’s money than your own." - Mark Twain

"fire is not energy but a creature that lives and grows and reproduces; its born and it dies. it can out think anyone. fire is the messenger of change. the sun is fire and the sun is not even particularly hot. fire eats the dirt of men. fire is the most blind justice. fire points toward God." - Sonny, Hell’s Kitchen

"tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, creeps in this petty pace from day to day, to the last syllable of recorded time; and all our yesterdays have lighted fools the way to dusty death. out, out brief candle. life’s but a walking shadow; a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is he and no more; it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury. signifying nothing." - William Shakespeare

"i congratulate myself on not having arrived into the world until the present time. this age suits my taste." - Ovid

"if you would have fleshly life, human life, hard life wich can move through time and space, then fight for it. if you would have human philosophy then struggle and make yourself wise. so that nothing can hurt you ever. wisdom is strength. collect yourself, whatever you are, into something with a purpose." - Pandora

"i’ve met the enemy and he is us."  - Pogo?

wala lang … im kinda psyching myself up na for the review na tomoz.. hehehe.. wala ng tulugan to.. exam na kay berms e.. patayan na as in .. sana talaga maghimala.. i really really need a miracle right now. serzly.. hehehe.. sana talaga ipasa nya ko.. and i wish to god pag bumalik c lim.. argh .. he can lift my 4 na as in.. asar tlaga… i wanna go na… as in.. i wanna end everything na.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh..

man..i cant even begin to describe what I’m feeling right now.. I’m.. happy.. i am..as in.. not like the usual happy happy..different happy… hehehe.. it’s been a long time since i felt this kind of happiness.. is it possible that three hours of talking can make up for the lost times?? is it possible that even though you’ve lost contact and haven’t been able to communicate with each other for quite some time that three hours can change it??as in fill up those empty spaces you’ve been wondering about for who knows how long where it came from?? as in change how you feel.. how you see things.. is it possible, to feel the same way you have since he left?? well.. is it?? i can’t grasp what I’m feeling right now.. i know its confusing.. hehehe even i cant figure this out.. help me?? nah.. i think better not.it’s really fun for me to try to figure out why i feel this way and why it’s like this..well.. this feeling for sure makes y life and all the shitty things that happen in it worth the while.. i know, i know.. i didn’t make any sense again.. can’t blame me…

hmm…almost four years in the making ha.. as in i neva thought na this day would come.. hehehhe kala ko talaga ima finish my studies na dito sa pampanga…guess i was wrong.. it’s really hard… (totoo)..ksi nmn ang dami ko memories dito..i mean not all of them are good there are bad ones syempre..but then this is like my 2nd home na.. hehehehehe.. almost everything happened here..can’t believe na im leaving na..it’s like.. haay…been through so much shit in my life here.. pero im not saying naman na i regret em.i actually am grateful for every shitty things that have happened in my life and for all the bitches and whores that i met and eventually made a friend outta em.. hehehe.. and i mean who can forget all the schmucks ive been with.. hehehehe.. and oo nga pala dapat special mention kahit pano.. ang mga kapatid ko sa pananalig..to my brothers and sisters.. long live the kindred.. i thank you from the bottom of my heart for making my stay here as memorable, as meaningful, as fun, as shitty, as inspiring??, as i dont know.. hell. i thank you. as in.. you have no idea how you made my stay so.. can’t find the word e..basta i’ll cherish every goddamn thing we did together and been through together.. heheh ang emote noh… BASTA MASAYA AKO SA KAPPA!!!! wahaha kahit na gasgas na.. totoo nmn.. wala na ko maisip maya na ulit.. hehehe mangaasar muna ako ng mga tao.. thanks guys..